What have you done?

Got this tag from Jenny

*BOLD THE ONES YOU'VE DONE*

smoked a cigarette
made out with a member of the same sex never!
crashed a friend's car not yet
stolen a car not in the near future, what if it's an emergency? hehe
been in love hardly
been dumped a lot
shoplifted sa grocery?
been fired not yet, hope not
been in a fist fight muntik na
snuck out of my parent's house when mom is not around, sometimes
had feelings for someone who didnt have them back Bojo? hehe
been arrested nope
made out with a stranger no
gone on a blind date yes
lied to a friend yes
had a crush on a teacher yes, my Philo teacher in college
been to Europe i hope so
skipped school a lot of times..hehe
slept with a co-worker never
seen someone die my dad
had a crush on one of your friends yes, crush lang naman di ba?
been to Canada
been to Mexico
been on a plane thrown up in a bar
purposely set a part of myself on fire
eaten Sushi yes
been snowboarding
met someone in person from your friend a lot of times
been moshing at a concert
been in an abusive relationship with Paul
taken painkillers yes, sakitin ako eh
love someone or miss someone right now guess who?
laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by yes, i love nature
made a snow angel
had a tea party
flown a kite always, when i was a little kid
built a sand castle yes, everytime im on a beach
gone puddle jumping
played dress up with my sisters..hehe
jumped into a pile of leaves
gone sledding
cheated while playing a game nung bata pa ko
been lonely sometimes
fallen asleep at work/school once in college with no teacher around. at work during break and lunch
used a fake id to get in a campus, yes!
watched the sunset i love nature, again!
felt an earthquake a lot of times
touched a snake im scared
slept beneath the stars yes, with my friends. i love stargazing
been tickled yes
been robbed i cannot count how many times
been misunderstood unfortunately yes
petted a reindeer/goat
won a contest a lot of contest and games
run a red light super bilis ng takbo ko! haha
been suspended from school im a good girl
been in a car accident yes, just recently
had braces im wearing it now
felt like an outcast yes, normal naman yun di ba?
eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night takaw ko noh?!
had deja vu most of the time
danced in the moonlight i want to
hated the way you look hehe
witnessed a crime yes, someone being shot
pole danced
questioned your heart a lot of times, that's why they call it foolish heart
been obsessed with post-it notes nung elementary
squished barefoot through the mud when i was a kid
been lost yes, to a lot of places but i always find my way back
been to the opposite side of the country i plan to
swam in the ocean always
cried yourself to sleep a lot of times, secretly
played cops and robbers yes, why not?
recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers ye, bored kasi
sung karaoke up to now, im an addict to music
paid for a meal with only coins pang-asar nga lang din
done something you told yourself you wouldn't stupid things like...secret! hehe
made prank phone calls yes, to my ex
laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
caught a snowflake on your tongue
danced in the rain with my cousins and sisters
written a letter to Santa Claus when i was a little child, my mom asked me to
been kissed under a mistletoe yes
watched the sun rise with someone you care about that's romantic, i willl someday
blown bubbles up to now
made a bonfire on the beach with my highschool barkada in Bataan
crashed a party maybe
gone rollerskating
had a wish come true a lot of times
humped a monkey
worn pearls sometimes
jumped off a bridge di pa naman
screamed penis in class in college, trip lang
ate dog/cat food no, pathetic
told a complete stranger you loved them Bojo?!
kissed a mirror minsan
sang in the shower always
have a little black dress a lot
had a dream that you married someone crazy dream
glued your hand to something
got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
kissed a fish
worn the opposite sex's clothes my brother's
been a cheerleader
sat on a roof top back in college, a lot of times, star gazing and eating on top of the roof
screamed at the top of your lungs yes!
done a one-handed cartwheel
talked on the phone for more than 6 hours its my job! and with Bojo, straight kahit 8 hours pa
stayed up all night always, im used to it
didn't take a shower for a week when i was hospitalized
pick and ate an apple right off the tree
climbed a tree mango, star apple and guava
had a tree house yes, sa farm namin
are scared to watch scary movies yes, scary nga di ba?
believe in ghosts yeah
have more then 30 pairs of shoes
worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say pajama taking the exam in UP
gone streaking
played ding-dong-ditch
played chicken
been pushed into a pool with your clothes on back in college
been told you're hot by a complete stranger yes..haha
broken a bone a lot of times, im so clumsy and so prone to accident
been easily amused babaw ko noh?
caught a fish then ate it
made porn
caught a butterfly before
laughed so hard you cried with my family and friends
cried so hard you laughed yes, with "him" and my dad
cheated on a test started on highschool, not so much in college
have a Britney Spears CD
forgotten someone's name always, im poor with names
slept naked in bording house, alone of course
French braided someone's hair my friends' and sisters'
gone skinny dippin in a pool
been threatened to be kicked out of your house

Looking back and getting a life

Looking back never missed on putting tears on my eyes or either putting smile on my face. From those two actions, I prefer the former (maybe because I'm really living the life of a sentimental fool or maybe because im just a plain fool blinded by my own views). Nevertheless, I never regret anything in my life, that's a tough lesson to learned and live with. For the fact that I constantly believe that everything in our lives do happen for a reason when sometimes, I use the same exact reason only as a lame escape-goat of being too idealistic about things just to cover a sprouting frustration and nearing madness.

Back to the present, junk mails have been sent to me (not again!) and going over them one by one, a copy of an article sent to me by a former classmate in UP got my full attention and striked me hard (believe me, it got straight in the heart, sabi nga nila, sapul!) So, let me share the lines;

"Get a life" has been one of my lifelong mantras. I have always believed that while a formal education is a wonderful thing, what I call an active life?with all its serendipitous detours and little accidents?is even better. It is a cliché by now to say that there are many things we can never learn in school?but for those of us who are in school, it is even more important to remember this.

Some of the best things happen when we step outside of our own lives and begin to be engaged in those of others. Often, the answers to our own problems lie in others, and in their larger predicaments. While involvement in a great cause can also create its own kind of blindness to everything else, I believe that, at least once in our lives, we should embrace a passion larger than ourselves; even the disillusionment that often follows can be very instructive, and will bring us one step closer to wisdom. One of the best ideas I ever heard came from a friend whom I used to play billiards with until the wee hours of the morning: "Everyone," he said while cleaning up the balls on the table, "should be entitled to make at least one big mistake."

Once in my life, I was a carefree soul; ready to face anything that is bound my way, ready to hit any wall and ready to jump on any heights. That was once.. when I stil have those fearless acts, those childish days, those careless flashes when nothing mattered to me but the specific moment.

As I finished reading the article, tears flowed in my eyes. Long have I've been blind for my dreams and wasted my time doing nothing for it. Thoughts of being lost and wandering about life made me feel sick rather than confusing. Suddenly, I felt being alive again, able to comprehend latest disappointments and begin to make things sense. Getting a life makes sense.. it really is and it should be.

So, Im allowed to make at least one big mistake?! That's good to know; relieving, in a sense. Relieving simply because it gives you excuse of being wrong. For what? To learn, of course. Without mistakes, there could be no learning. Without suffering, there could be no compassion. Same thing, er?

Bottom line is, I have to get my life back. I don't care how much would be the price for it. Thanks for the junk mails anyway..

An assignment..and a terrible day

Des gave me an assignment and I enjoyed answering this one while Im at work..

1. Anong oras ka gumising kaninang umaga? 8am
2. Ano ka sa dalawa morning person o night owl? night owl
3. Anong huling pelikula ang napanood mo sa sinehan? Prime
4. Anong paborito mong TV show? anything
5. Anong kinain mo sa agahan? Fried rice, burger steak
6. Ano ang iyong panggitnang pangalan? J
7. Ano ang paborito mong lutong pagkain? lahat
8. Anong pagkain ang ayaw mo? exotic food
9. Paboritong araw? rest day
10. Paboritong CD sa ngayon? my own copy of cynical songs
11. Paboritong sandwich? clubhouse
12. Anong katangian ang ayaw mo? backstabber
13. Anong ginagawa mo kapag nababagot ka? surf, watch movies, sound trip, read books
14. Kung magbabakasyon ka sa ibang bahagi ng mundo, saan ka tutungo? Paris, England, Aussie, Palawan, Philippines' beaches
15. Paboritong tatak ng damit? hmmmm.. kahit ano basta cute na damit, im not that so concious with branded clothes
16. Saan ka pinanganak? Bulacan
17. Ano ang pinakamagandang alaala ng iyong kamusmusan? naglalaro ng touching ball sa ulan
18. May alaga ka bang hayop? wala
19. Mayroon ka bang bagong balita na gusto mong ibahagi sa lahat? ikakasal na ko..haha
20. Ano ang gusto mong maging noong musmos ka pa? engineer
21. Mga trabahong napasukan mo? campaign coordinator, admin assistant on a car company and currently an agent..saya!
22. Ano ang nauna, manok o itlog? manok

Terrible day
So much for the cool stuff, this is one of the most terrible day of my life. Im in the edge of bursting into tears right here in my station. Reason? a lot.. I don't have the will to write it all down here on my blog. I suddenly felt so alone, no bestfriend to comfort me, no one to talk to and cry on. I hate the feeling, but I just have to move on with this life.