see you soon, blog

my beloved,

im sorry, i've been into a lot of stuffs recently, i wasn't able to inform you exactly how i feel and exactly what i've been going thru. im afraid i have to give you up, just for a moment. our relatiosnship started when someone special left me. now, i guess i have to move on. im missing you so much but i don't know if i can still stay in this site and update you from all my undertakings.

i hate to leave but maintaining you will be very difficult for me. i found a new friend, more secretive than yours, and im taking down note of all the affairs in my life and please dont hate me for this. i wish i could stay longer, i wish i could still find the faith in my heart to write and share my life here.

this time in my life is one of the hardest, i should say. because i had hurt a lot of people unintentionally but staying in their lives would be more lie to myself and to them.

i would stay happy - i promise, i will post again when im ready, ready to face new challenges again but now, i have to seclude myself from the reality that kills me, from the cruelness im doing to the gift of life and love.

im sorry..but before anything else, i wanna say thank you for all the things you've done for me, you made me somehow stronger, you made me meet a lot of new cool people in the cyberworld. now, im wandering and this time, wandering inside my soul and the very heart of my being. i hope you understand.

see you soon..

-nina

where is the love?

it's day of the hearts again..

i can't remember the last time i celebrated such event with a special someone. when i say "special someone", im talking about a better half, a partner.

i used to celebrate my valentine's day with my family when i was still in my chiildhood days, going out on a dinner or just having a plain event at the house. after a failing relationship, i went back to those old good days.

honestly, cupid's arrow hit me directly at the exact target, my heart. only, it keeps it from bleeding and hurting and finally, it died.

i don't know if im going to rant or be happy for this day. im excited to take my family out later. but having my romantic dinner? i'd rather let the day passed..

a happy day

for the nth time, i felt great in helping out a client in her account. i noticed that in my blog, i was after pain, rants, whining and negative concerns that worsen my condition. and now i pleasingly allow myself to post a wonderful feeling.

i felt i am being loved. not only by my family and friends but also by my honey.

at work, i had a very good time talking to our customers. and was happy to hear their comments like i've been great and very helpful. although, it's a little bit tiring informing them everything they need to know in the account, but it's all worth it.

looking forward for more happy days...

this is what i call life,

10 random facts about me

• i can't sleep without a blanket and a pillow i can embrace. also, when i am super tired, i sleep talk.

• i have skin ezcema. i know its heridatary and can also be aggrevated with food allergies, smoking, pollution, emotional stress and others. its coming back once in a while so i have to take extra care on food as well as the condition of my environment; more importantly, on stress and physical activities.

• i hate waiting, be it on a very long queue or jammed on a heavy flow of traffic. why? maybe because, i easily get bored.

• im stubborn, no explanation needed...

• i love to watch movies, up to extent of watching Titanic, Coyote Ugly and LOTR more than 15 times already. i also wanna listen to music, it heals my soul and worsen my emotional condition (sometimes).

• i am complicated, i don't say what i really want because i want others to realized it themselves. i know i sound demanding on this part, but i am.

• i am a crybaby. i am a sentimental fool. although, a lot of times, i hide that sensitive part of mine. i am sweet to people and believes that if i love them ,i should show them. but with regards to hurting, i'd rather keep it to myself.

• im wearing braces now and it feels like hell everytime my dentist would adjust it. i can't eat well for the next three days, good time for diet? i dont think so..

• im afraid of blood, injection and hospitals. i can't imagine myself taking up nursing or anything that has to do with what i've just mentioned. it drives me crazy, and i really cry even for a small scartch. my tolerance for physical pain is very low that it drives my family really mad everytime i will be hospitalized or checked up because im too "pasaway".

• i am a frustrated engineer. back in highshcool, i wanted to become an engineer because it makes me feel superior to guys, like i can also do what they can. but my dad wanted me to take up business. on the other hand ,i did not regret taking up the course my dad asked me to, it's a total fun.