Birthday girl
Hay, kaloka ang ang nagdaang linggo sa akin. I feel so restless, partying, going out, thinking.. Im twenty two and yet, I still dont know what I really want out of this life.
Im not happy at work anymore, I wanna move out of Alabang, I want, i want, i want.. Puro na lang "i want.." No actions taken. No plans. How pathetic my life is right now..
On the other hand, I dont lose hope of finding myself. I am so thankful for all the blessings I have in my life. And that keeps me from quitting this war.
I received a lot of greetings from people I don't expect to hear from. There was a long lost friend who greeted and called from Middle East pa. Actually, he was an old suitor, but we decided to keep the relationship on a friendly level. "Bakit ngayon ka lang ulit nagparamdam?", he told me that he's trying to stay away because of my boyfriend. Eh wala naman akong boyfriend. Oh well, maybe when I told him I had someone special last June, he concluded that Im in a relationship already. Makes sense..though.
I spent the whole week celebrating the said birthday with my highschool barkada, college friends, family, cousins, officemates.. Im so tired..
Tired of thinking, of figuring out what I need to do to take my goals into actions. Poor little girl..
Sabi nila, Im a year older daw. It's true but come to think of it, getting a year older on our birthdays is a collective issue. We grow older everyday of our lives, and we just face it after a year telling ourselves we have to be more mature, more responsible, more stable.. We set expectations on ourselves,that we have to achieve some goals at this age or at that age, that we have to be this and that.. There's nothing wrong with making plans.. nothing wrong with what we want to happen in our lives.. nothing wrong with what we want to leave in our past, with who we are at the present, with how to face the future.
In life, everything makes sense and has a purpose.. And as we grew older, day by day, year by year.. we came to neglect the happy moments we had and end up regretting.. end up thinking what we have done for the past years of our life, end up swearing that if we have another chance to take things again, we'll do it in a more mature way.. end up wondering where are we right now if we did something different. And in the end, everything seems not to matter but solely, your experience..
Im not happy at work anymore, I wanna move out of Alabang, I want, i want, i want.. Puro na lang "i want.." No actions taken. No plans. How pathetic my life is right now..
On the other hand, I dont lose hope of finding myself. I am so thankful for all the blessings I have in my life. And that keeps me from quitting this war.
I received a lot of greetings from people I don't expect to hear from. There was a long lost friend who greeted and called from Middle East pa. Actually, he was an old suitor, but we decided to keep the relationship on a friendly level. "Bakit ngayon ka lang ulit nagparamdam?", he told me that he's trying to stay away because of my boyfriend. Eh wala naman akong boyfriend. Oh well, maybe when I told him I had someone special last June, he concluded that Im in a relationship already. Makes sense..though.
I spent the whole week celebrating the said birthday with my highschool barkada, college friends, family, cousins, officemates.. Im so tired..
Tired of thinking, of figuring out what I need to do to take my goals into actions. Poor little girl..
Sabi nila, Im a year older daw. It's true but come to think of it, getting a year older on our birthdays is a collective issue. We grow older everyday of our lives, and we just face it after a year telling ourselves we have to be more mature, more responsible, more stable.. We set expectations on ourselves,that we have to achieve some goals at this age or at that age, that we have to be this and that.. There's nothing wrong with making plans.. nothing wrong with what we want to happen in our lives.. nothing wrong with what we want to leave in our past, with who we are at the present, with how to face the future.
In life, everything makes sense and has a purpose.. And as we grew older, day by day, year by year.. we came to neglect the happy moments we had and end up regretting.. end up thinking what we have done for the past years of our life, end up swearing that if we have another chance to take things again, we'll do it in a more mature way.. end up wondering where are we right now if we did something different. And in the end, everything seems not to matter but solely, your experience..
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