On being single

Most of the time, people would ask me if I have a boyfriend or not. Always, I answered them, "None". After giving my straight response, they would either end up asking me, "Why?" or "How come?" which actually means the same.

Okay, so what if I don't have a boyfriend? Any problem? I don't see anything wrong with that. If my status now still belongs to those unattached people, who cares, right?

Personally, I don't commit myself because I haven't found the man yet. Im not talking of the perfect man or ideal man I had set for me. I haven't found that someone who I can share my life with. Well, aside from the very fact that I'm having some identity crisis lately figuring out what I really want to do with this life.

I have a very simple reason, Im not ready yet. Maybe because Im still afraid to get hurt, afraid to be at my loosing end again. Or maybe, I haven't found the one yet. One I can share anything with, one I can talk to about anything under the sun.. Someone who is mature enough to sit with me and talk to me about misuderstandings we will have. Someone who can make me follow because Im too stubborn, but not to the point that he's controlling my life. Not too good to be true and not too bad to trash..

I want to share this song,

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.