i hope it's really April Fool's Day

last tuesday i went to an interview with a promising position. i already talked to keith and finally resigned.

i don't know what to write exactly. at first, i thought im gonna write about good stuffs, like JC finally got here last Tuesday from New Jersey (although he is staying for 3 weeks only so we planned right away in going to Puerto Galera), got the computer finally working right, and the great results I had with the exam and interview with a new company and finally moving out of here (im actually at work right now but I am able to write because it's idle time, which do not happen normally).

but I cannot rejoice for the fact that about 30 minutes ago, i learned that my grandfather passed away. i wanted to go to Cebu but that would be far from possible right now becasue I wouldn't have the means to. i cannot asked my mom, its too much because after April 16, i wouldn't have a work anymore. on the other hand, i would start in Makati in April 17 but i guess i have to wait for the results of my application with the position i've been dreaming of.

honestly, im sad. i don't wanna leave my team but Keith is moving in Cebu as well as the others in another company too. there is no reason for me to stay here, no motivation. i always loved the team, p2keith. my calls and my day would never be the same without them, i found true friends and enjoyed everytime i literally spent with them. i've been sending text messages to Tin, Juni and Lauren opening up the fact that it realy hurts. but i guess, that's what life is; just what like Tin wrote in her text message, "alam mo napaisip din ako eh..its kinda scary to separating from the people u've leanred to like. most relationships, even friendship needs constants and proximity..something we get from working together..im sure when we resign, we'll find very little need to keep in touch."

if my heart would stop beating, i guess it wouldn't hurt so much...