it comes in three, really? part 2

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i got my passport, finally. what to do with that? im not certain..
i dont wanna rant on how i got it. as expected, along line of queue awaited me last tuesday. aside from the very fact that i arrived at lunch time and needed to go back. well at least, i had the time to take my lunch and not hurry up.

after i got the passport past after two in the afternoon, i headed towards Makati and applied to another company, it was a rush decision. i got my resume printed in Netopia and underwent couple of interviews - initial, speech and final - with examination, essays and typing test.
i got the new job. although, they offered lower than i expected and lower than im earning right now, the location is a lot better. my goal was going out of Alabang, wasn't it?

honestly, i had the contract with me which was presented last night just before my shift started. i signed it but this time, with hesitation. im excited for the fact that im actually getting what i want (not actually everything) and realized one thing, i will never be satisfied. maybe because im expecting a lot or maybe because after i had what i want, im setting a new goal, a new want..

Keith is leaving, only him knows when. well, he is currently negotiating with the managament because they don't wanna release his clearance yet. why? i do not exactly know why. im happy for him, he's moving to Cebu which is a lot closer to his hometown but that means leaving the team as well. two options awaited our team, we might get dispersed to different teams or have our new own TL. but im not staying, so they are. everyone is sick and tired of the account, of the management; certainly demotivated for the issues we currently face.

am i happy? am i happier? im happy because i got a new option, which is to move out. finally, venturing out of my comfort zone, being determined to do good in my new job, and being closer to my home (which is the most important thing to me now). but what about this cold feet? i love my team so much, my days would never be the same without them. i found very good companions and friends in them, very honest ones. moreover, im being the "crybaby" Kuya George used to tag me.

by the way, i got to talk to ria last night and we spend time updating each other with our lives. also, on the other hand, tel is proposing another deal, working to Korea and leave next month but i declined the offer(sorry, tel).

mixed emotions are killing me right now. setting aside the stress im getting from travelling to work, im also thinking about breaking up with gerry. i cannot stand long distance relationships anymore. i guess, i have to pass this test of love, huh?!

oh well, i hope i can really click on "next" and finally move on. it is time...i guess.