nightmare

i thought i was having nightmares...

my life is getting worse, unexpectedly. and due to some shity
procastination, im becoming the unraveled antagonist of myself.

am i being conceited and self-centered idiot i used to hate? am i being heartless? am i ruthless?

or maybe im just being blind and numb

and so i thought, "a really great feeling comes after the pain"

the world is cruel, life is in mess, love is forgotten and so im exploring hell...